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Sunday, 11 July, 2021
I've made two more seed bead lizards with my own original pattern, one that is rainbow-colored and one that is black with a light green underbelly. From a secondhand website I just ordered a purple Juicy Couture hoodie and a Hello Kitty cap, so now I have to wait a few days for them to arrive which I'm super excited about. I love JC, and I love Hello Kitty, so BOOM double love purchase. Still waiting for my knee-high Converse that I bought on eBay to arrive. Something that kinda totally sucks is that ya homegirl is struggling with her identity. Cutting my hair was such a relief and gave me so much happiness but it doesn't feel like enough, I'm still not satisfied. But hey, something good is that I posted a Serial Experiments Lain drawing on Instagram that I didn't expect to get any attention, but it's currently sitting on like 80 likes or so. I have a commission to finish that I haven't even started on even though it's been like 2 days, and I told the commissioner I usually get stuff done within 2-3 days. I'll get to it tomorrow.

Saturday, 10 July, 2021
So I got my hair cut a little above my shoulders and I love it. I'm WAY happier, I feel like MY TRUE SELF!!! Still unsure on how to style it but I'll learn with time. I started watching Serial Experiments Lain cause I've been seing memes about it all over Instagram for a while, and one of my followers recommended it to me. I got a few minutes into episode 2 before I had to pause at a creepy ass frame that scared me too much in the middle of the night, attached file related (Open image in new tab to see better). On the side I'm binging the new season of Atypical that dropped yesterday. Earlier today I made a seed bead lizard, making seed bead animals is a hobby of mine that I've been into since FOREVER. Not actually forever, but since like 2nd grade. It's something I have never seen in real life outside of my grade school, so I'm thinking it's probably a pretty niche thing? The only websites I found with patterns are way old from the 2000's or abandoned blogs from the 2010's. Anyway, something exciting coming up next week is that I'll finally be making some progress on redoing my bedroom. My mom and I are buying purple paint for my walls on Monday, after the painting is done we'll put up a bulletin board and some shelves by my desk, possibly above my headboard too. I can't wait to put decorative stuff up!!!!! Finally this place will have some personality, after four whole years of living here. Better late than never.

Tuesday, 6 July, 2021
I just be makin websites. Don't know how many I've made at this point but shiiii it's fun so I'm not stopping. My grandma is coming over tomorrow to cut my hair (which has not been even slightly TRIMMED since before first quarantine), so I'm pretty excited about that. Gonna go for semi-short, so like, maybe a little above shoulder length. If it goes wrong I'll probably kill myself.